Apr 13 2009
it sucks being a grown-up
my head has been developing and mulling and obsessing over a dueling list as of late. not exactly a pro/con list, more like a want/should or heart/logic list. it's the list of things i want to do, would love to do and perhaps even maybe need to try to do for that whole spiritual-creative-happiness equilibrium thing, but then there's the other list. the list that, well, quite honestly is made of things unappealing, or at least not exciting. but some are sort of unknown, so who knows. but that list is the "should" list: things i know i "should" do once this whole school thing finally leaves me the crap alone (and some before that even). high on it is "just grow up and get a full-time job already, soul-killing or not, you should really make some *%*&$# money already!" i don't wanna work in an office and wear sensible heels, mom! <-- see, whiny. immature. and maybe not so problematic if i were single and not mooching, but i am. so really, there's no other option, regardless of what captain supportive husband says. but sometimes, it just plain sucks. it's frustrating how the want/need/should or whatever lists are so at odds sometimes. but, i suppose that's life and i suppose it makes us work a little harder to figure out how to eventually get them in line. it would just be nice if "eventually" didn't seem so far away. harrumph.i should really add a "whiny" category over there. sheesh.
to come soon, the happy and grateful and yay blog about my birthday weekend and the lovely relaxing Easter ben and i got to have. will have to track down a photo of those ribs...