i knew i'd be bad at this blogging thing. i'm neglectful, busy doing other things and stressing a little and wondering how in the world this head that all hats deem to be small or smaller can possibly hold so much mucus and feel so much bigger than ben's. for real. that big. and blog, you're a little needy. it's not your fault, i know, it's just the way you are. you depend on me for pretty much everything. it's like you can't just exist without me or something. sheesh. so i'm checking in, because i haven't left you and really there are things i've been meaning to tell you, i just haven't had the chance. but i have two more weeks of school, then perhaps there will be more time for you. i'm hoping for many blogs about how awesome sleep is.
we had a lot of fun all weekend with alan and jj staying here for jared and carey's wedding. the wedding and the weather were lovely. ben took tons of pictures and i somehow became the videographer. no doubt that video is gonna look like somebody's drunken, palsied old relative shot it. sorry guys. i'm pretty sure both carey and jared were in the video though, so that has to count for something, right?
cnn is right now telling me there's a 'superhero' in chicago now who calls himself shadowhare. yep. he doesn't look like an idiot at all. wearin a cape like he's never seen a superhero movie or read a comic book. more power to you, shadowhare. i will not mock your name or the fact that you in no way resembled a hare in your silly lil' costume there, because it's a lovely morning and i shall attempt some modicum of positivity.
bleh. i even made myself a lil' sick there. i think that's my cue to go do something productive.
Tags: busybusybusy, carey & jared got hitched yay!, i'm a bad blogger, superhero? or jackass?
my head has been developing and mulling and obsessing over a dueling list as of late. not exactly a pro/con list, more like a want/should or heart/logic list. it's the list of things i want to do, would love to do and perhaps even maybe need to try to do for that whole spiritual-creative-happiness equilibrium thing, but then there's the other list. the list that, well, quite honestly is made of things unappealing, or at least not exciting. but some are sort of unknown, so who knows. but that list is the "should" list: things i know i "should" do once this whole school thing finally leaves me the crap alone (and some before that even). high on it is "just grow up and get a full-time job already, soul-killing or not, you should really make some *%*&$# money already!" i don't wanna work in an office and wear sensible heels, mom! <-- see, whiny. immature. and maybe not so problematic if i were single and not mooching, but i am. so really, there's no other option, regardless of what captain supportive husband says. but sometimes, it just plain sucks. it's frustrating how the want/need/should or whatever lists are so at odds sometimes. but, i suppose that's life and i suppose it makes us work a little harder to figure out how to eventually get them in line. it would just be nice if "eventually" didn't seem so far away. harrumph.i should really add a "whiny" category over there. sheesh.
to come soon, the happy and grateful and yay blog about my birthday weekend and the lovely relaxing Easter ben and i got to have. will have to track down a photo of those ribs...
Tags: heart vs. logic, life in the grown-up lane, want vs. should, whiny whine whine
dear blog,
i am tired and should apparently be brushing up on my shakespearean sonnets for my graduate exam tomorrow, but i am SO FREAKING EXCITED about a new, um, internship? awesome job with no pay? anyway, i'm gonna start helping out with soulpancake. i'm kind of in love with the concept and reallyreallyreally excited to start hanging out in the creative lair and thinking and bouncing around on balance-ball chairs and playing with sharpies of various colors. so. i thought i would tell you of the one bright spot in an otherwise (sometimes spectacularly) crappy week, and to tell you to go play on the site as well. and maybe, just maybe one day they'll have money to give me.
love,
meg
Tags: exciting new endeavor!, soulpancake, why do i keep finding cool things to do for no money?, yay!
